yay!  new recordings from our live show last friday at airplay cafe!!!  i'm so psyched with how they all turned out.  please check it out, if you have a moment.   your ears will thank you!   and so will i!

 and that's pretty much all i have for the moment.  except AAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWW!

community wins!!!!!!!

also white collar is terrific!  

thanks to you fabulous friends who have helped.  i still have more shows to try out and that thrills me to no end! 

so flist.....

tell me some good reasons why i should catch up on castle, dollhouse, gossip girl, and sanctuary......i haven't been watching them at all and feel like mebbe i ought.

and if you can't tell me why i should be watching them....what else should i be watching i might not?

thanks and smooches!

just watched the final episode of defying gravity and i have that awful feeling of loss.  i know i was warned not to get too attached, but it was so damn good and so full of possibility, and it's just done.  i was so gripped by it: the characters, the stories, the mythology that was building, the overall look of the show, and the mystery.  not to mention ron livingston was carving his niche in my little "men i love" pantheon.  damn abc for being so fucking shortsighted.  how unusual for a network to fail on such a grand scale......fuck. 

um.  in other less fannish news, on friday when i was playing hooky, i spoke to hachem for the first time in 21 years using gmail's voip.  it was strange and intense and wonderful and weird and i'm gripped with the impulse to hop a plane to tunisia.  but i won't, so no worries--at least not yet.  i really want him to come here actually and think that might be nearly impossible as well (just how easy is it for an arab to come into the us these days?).  it is perhaps as he tells me, destiny keeping us apart.  that we're actually star-crossed.  and that's nearly as heart-breaking now as it was 20 years ago when we met in paris.  

meanwhile i have to keep my head about me so i can continue to do the job i hate during the day.  and do all the many other things i love--like my band!  i love my band!  the show friday was mediocre at best although i sounded good.  the boys had some problems, and tyler especially was nervous and then broke a string so there was that.  but i had a great time and britton kept telling me i was holding them all together which felt terrific plus i looked great--miss anita at the lancôme counter in the lloyd center nordstrom did my make-up and it was fantastic--all sexy, smoky eyes...very glam!   and i can't wait for our show next weekend at the alberta st pub.  

well i'm off to hang with my bro and the nephews and then i'm seeing ragtime tonight with my friend liz.  all in all, not a bad weekend! 

i just finished re-watching dogfight which i haven't seen since it came out in '91.  and watching river phoenix was like a revelation.  and now i'm leaking tears and missing this poor boy.  what a loss. 

this is awesome.  seriously.  sheldon/penny in the best most believable way.  

and also this from glee.  will/emma.  omg.  i love them.   and i love this show.  in a "i haven't felt like this since forever" kind of way.  they could call it joy if it weren't such a terrible idea.  but that's what it fills me with: joy.  and glee.  so i guess they can leave it.

tell me why the unrequited or thwarted love is the best kind?  tell me...........

sometimes i really love bones.  

and also "sex up."  come on now! 

plus you should see my new haircut.  it's so rock n roll.   if i could figure out how, i'd take a pic with my blackberry and show you.  that may be more techy than i can manage at this late hour.

i rest my case. 

i just now sent to the collegial team with whom i work, this vaguely vocabularily-challenging teaser: 

but there are some great titles on this list that i've missed too!  man, i repeat for the millionth time: i love the intarwebz!   i mean where else you gonna get a list of novels that every science fiction buff connoisseur aficionado inamorata ought to read? 

in other news, i love my band.  i hate my job.  why can't i be a rock star and just quit?   if nothing else, i'm hoping to get a book out of this whole ordeal.

and if you're anywhere near the portland metropolitan area this friday, you should come see me at red room on 82nd at midnight.   it's where i'll be doing the job i love.

ok so this morning at yet another interminable "team" meeting, i used the word "obstreperous" to describe some of the students.  at that moment, all five pairs of eyes turned towards me as though i'd broken into greek or sumerian and, nearly as one, chimed, "hey there...words" or "this is middle school."  

there are no eyes big enough to roll largely enough.  none.  

this is where i work.

via trillingstar who is a star indeed!

eta hmm linkies no workie! hmm

* Find your birth month and paste it at the top.
* Strike what doesn't apply; highlight what does.
* Post that and all twelve months under an LJ cut. 

by way of bonorattle :
 
SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.


( get yer birth months here! )

every once in a while, i head over to match.com to see what all the fuss is about.  or the not fuss.  and i look through the 'gentlemen' who populate the 35-45 year old age bracket and live in or around portland.  and it bums me out.  there are some seemingly nice fellows.  a few who are intriguing looking, who seem intelligent enough etc.  but mostly i think, shit i live in the wrong place!  damn you pacific northwest!  all these guys with their kayaks and their mountain bikes and their ball caps and their FLEECE!!!!!!!  arrrgggghhhhh!  i don't fit into that profile picture at all.  give me a movie.  take me to france.  cook me a dinner.  read me a book.  ok i'll take a walk with you and maybe even a moderate hike but do not expect me to strap anything to my feet and head down any sort of hill. that will not happen.  

i've matched before.  i had a profile once or twice even.  but damn it if i can ever get any play.  my "friend" elsa says (she of the nordic 6' tall skiing body) having a match.com account is like having a part-time job.  RIGHT.  a part-time job.  now you see the reason for the quotes around friend.  yeah, mine's more like the 150 resumes you send out hoping you'll get one interview at that crappy accessories shop in the mall.  

i know it's not supposed to be about appearances, but it totally is.  and i've never had much confidence in that arena. my weight made that very hard for me.   i mean, i always dressed well and worked with what i had, but i've definitely not been the expected height/weight proportional.  and this makes a difference--whether that's in my head or the reality; it ultimately makes no difference as we apparently make our own reality.   now my body's pretty different since the surgery, 80 pounds off will do that to you.  i'm in size larges now and 14s are starting to get too big.  and sometimes i think, wow.  i'm beautiful.  which is nice.  but not all the time--that takes time.  you know 30 years of feeling pretty shitty about how you look doesn't go away in a snap.  

now i'm curious.  if i put a profile together, will it just be the standard disappointment or will things be different?   and given how much energy it's been taking for me to just do my fucking job.  god i hate my job.  do i really have the energy to deal with dating or being disappointed?  am i jinxing myself merely by thinking the vaguely negative thoughts?  why can't i just move to belgium, date maurice and forget all this stupid crap!  

and someone tell me please why oh why crap like vampire diaries is on tv when life, chuck, the middleman, and firefly are not?  WHY!!!!!!??????  see i know what's really important!  never you fear!

anyway.  friends are coming over for soup so i'd better skedaddle--there's jewish penicillin that needs a-warmin'!

you guys!!!!! if you need to know how your sexual desires hold up to the church you need look no further than this flow chart!  never be a sinner again!!!!!  man i love boingboing!  

oh wow you guys!  this show is pretty awesome!  ron livingston is fun to watch. he gets that balance between angstyness, hotness, and wry comedian that i adore, and the overall look of the show is fantastic.  plus it's totally intriguing and has vague moments of creepiness that i like but it's not scary.  at least not yet....this is so much more interesting to me than flash forward.  of course, they are substantially different from each other but i'm already more invested in the characters and the story.   ooh new show!!!  so exciting!

um also i watched stargate universe last night and well i thought it was pretty good not great but i liked the production values a lot.  and i'm curious to see where it all goes.  i know the fandom was underwhelmed but i'm feeling pretty good about it. 

yes playing hooky is damned good for catching up on tv, doncha know!

also i need some new icons.  i'm bored with my current list.....

so aside from courtney cox being really beautiful and not looking forty and so having a slightly hard time buying her "i'm so old" bit, cougar town is funny, witty, cute, silly, has a great cast, and i laughed out loud several times.  colored me surprised!   

house is seems to be backing off from the huddy stuff which i know makes some despondent and some ecstatic....oh fandom, how you split!  but i still love me some hugh and his eyes make me go "guh!" so i'm just happy to see him regularly again.

i'm intrigued by fast forward though i have to say that having brits play american is getting wearisome.  don't we have a few actors who could pull off an fbi agent or a doctor?  or better yet, couldn't the brits just play brit?  i find myself distracted by listening to the accents, trying to catch the wrong "a" instead of just watching the shows.....

i haven't caught up on big bang theory or himym but they're waiting for me on my hard drive where all good things live.   also someone in england decided it was time to make another version of emma with romola garai and who am i not to watch anything related to jane austen?  so i've got that.  

plus there's dexter to watch and the new, although i guess, much maligned stargate: universe as well as catching up on dollhouse and bones and holy crap there are not enough hours in the day!  good thing i called in sick today!   i can definitely put my sniffly nose to good work lying here and watching tv, right? 

also have any of you discovered manna bread?  it's yeast-free and made from sprouted wheat and fruit so it's really high in fiber and protein and tastes like cake!   it's my current morning delight.  that and a cup of coffee with silk creamer and i'm in heaven. 



oh and super happy birthday wishes to a2zmom !  i hope you have a wonderful birthday!  oh and i missed skywardprodigal 's as well as a bunch of others (corellianjedi , anr , ixchup  your names come to mind) so consider yourself duly belatedly wished very happy!  

have a great day y'all!

good luck!

why finding the really useful words in the dictionary is so hard (that's what she said.....!)